I noticed a while ago that I don’t laugh as much as I used to. Granted this is something that is hard to catch or even notice, but as I was seated, I received a text with something “funny” going on. I didn’t laugh. I started to think that hey, I am not laughing, but should that deserve laughter? That would be determined by the context of the “funny” (which will not be mentioned), but to make it short, the context did not call for laughs, at least in my opinion. But what struck me as odd was that 7 years ago, I would have laughed. What has changed? Times have certainly changed, and I suppose that I have changed with them. It seems that being a human means from time to time changing one’s self to rise and meet certain challenges. This is how one survives and one achieves “greatness.” I know that I personally have raised to the meet the challenge several times in my few years here on Earth. Do some people sit idly by and let fate twist and defeat them? I feel sorrow for those individuals who let things happen to them without being strong; without being a contender; without being resolute. If a man is faced with difficulty or great trials and tribulations against a certain villainous foe, then it that man’s duty to rise up, be a strong hand of righteousness, and hammer the challenger and challenges with the confidence that this is his duty to himself, first and foremost, and to his world. So as I sit here reading about why things should be funny, please excuse me if I do not laugh. The context which is found as “funny” is not rooted in something wise or sincere. If I do not laugh, it is because I recognize this early on and I realize that it is the signal of yet another challenge, which must be thwarted. I seem to be laughing a lot less lately, partially because I look at everything from a logical, stoic, and wise point of view (at least I try), but it isn’t a bad thing. I see where things are and where things are going, and let me tell you, it is nothing to laugh about. The world needs more strong hands to regain its footing, but it might be too late… but nevertheless, it is still the duty that one must perform; we must be the never-tiring defenders of what is right and of free-will.
Sitting here just thinking about things that were, things that are, and things to come. Now, I have a great life. I have a caring family, caring friends, decent health, and a strong intellect. I consider myself lucky and blessed for what I cherish most, which are those things mentioned. But I just can’t help but wonder why none of my closest friends rarely inquire about my inner most feelings, opinions, thoughts, character, emotions, etc… Perhaps those are things for the future, or things that should be dealt with in the past. It is strange to me that I hardly ever voice my true reasoning, and it isn’t because I don’t want to, but because no one asks for it. Am I that bad of a friend? If I can cherish their friendship, then shouldn’t they cherish mine? It would seem that those things would reciprocate, but may be wrong. Perhaps I am not a deserving friend, but a friend out of mere convenience. I would like to voice my opinions, but I never want to seem overbearing. Therein, however, lies the problem. I don’t think I take stances often enough. Maybe if I were so decisive, then maybe my council would be more readily sought after. But then again, if I do decide to be more decisive and stubborn, then I would not be myself. So, the question boils down to this: should I be myself and forsake true friendship, or should I be open and decisive and forsake myself.
Now to be on topic: ideas. What are they? Hard to explain offhand, but that is okay. Ideas are what make actions important. Without ideas, action could harm others. Without action, however, ideas would be useless. They both are needed. Now, not all ideas are good ones; this can be easy to understand. Actions can do the most harm or benefit with ideas to start them off. Actions should be the representation of our ideas, but since we are imperfect creatures, actions are hardly perfect. The idea is perfect, but the execution of those ideas is where the human imperfection is seen. Do humans have any shred of perfection in them? Yes I believe so, otherwise our ideas would not seem perfect, but as a whole, we are far from it.
As I am sure no one truly reads this crap that I write nor anyone else’s besides funny pictures and paragraphs, but being the introspective man always seeking wisdom, besides my writing (computer or paper) my thoughts seem to get lost in the everyday hustle and bustle. I am a scholar at heart, a philosopher, and ultimately a historian. I am a son, a brother, and a friend. I hope that is good enough for the world.
Hey everyone (or whoever gives a crap about anything I have ever posted). I haven’t posted in a year or so and to be quite honest, I don’t care. It isn’t as if anyone actually reads these things or takes what one says wholeheartedly. Everyone subconsciously adheres to their own biases so what is the point of presenting one’s opinion other than influence upon certain action? Well the point of this blog, BS opinion thing is to vent and to get people to be a tad bit introspective.
I don’t know about anyone else (if anyone else will ever read this), but I find the lack of respect for one’s fellow man these days to be sad. What happened to the days when a person was to respect someone based on who they were and the actions they made based from their character? Did those days even exist? Sometimes I wonder if the “glory days” were glorious at all. Sure there have always been bad things in this world (slavery, wars, poverty, etc…) but I am wholeheartedly in agreement to the fact that because we have these bad things is the reason for having the good things in the world that we have. Without the bad, there is no point in defining the good or growing towards a good. Like everything else in this world, things just have to balance.
Now, that may seem that I am advocating those bad things, but in all honesty I am not. I am one who tries to adhere to the good to combat the bad. My bias is my bias, but I am open to criticism, only if it is rooted in something to benefit the good and not the bad. So many people think they are right (actually it is everyone, me included). No one can be wrong. Well I am here stating that I have been wrong many times, but I am glad I stuck with my wrongness. With me holding on to my wrongness, I have learned what is right the hard way and in my opinion, the only way. Sometimes it pays to be wrong.
As I am sure, if anyone actually read this crap, they are laughing right now, bored, or haven’t even read this sentence because deep down you don’t give three F#%*$, and to be honest I don’t blame you. Who am I? I am a young man, about to embark on a new path in my life. You don’t know me or know what I am capable of nor what I am not capable of. Why should my opinion influence yours? The only reason to allow me to influence you is if I am speaking in the medium or language that you need. If you have ever thought about what was being written, then you now have my spin on it. You can take it or leave it. The choice is ultimately yours, as it has always been. So many people want to control, yet they just sit idly by and wait for others to tell them what to do. Why? In my opinion it is very simple: because if they take control of their lives and they fail, then they know they have failed because of themselves and no one else. People are scared of this truth.
If you really want to live without failure, turn to God. Live the way He planned for you. Sure He gave you free will, and yes you do have control over everyday decisions, but ultimately, we adhere to His rule for us. Take control, but don’t be afraid to listen to Him. You won’t fail unless you stray away from Him. But for those who claim to be omnipotent in their own lives, you are living a lie and are delusional. You want to be the one in control? Fine go ahead, but don’t whine when you fail and fall flat on your back and no one is there to help you up. There will be people there, I promise, but they will be looking at you laughing and wondering what you were thinking. But God will be there. He is always there and always will be there.
Now if you have read this far, then I must applaud you and your efforts. Some of you, I guarantee, don’t believe in God, or the devil, or anything else in regards to Christianity, so what I said in the last paragraph may be wrong in your eyes. But let me ask you this one question: Do you believe in anything? The answer is yes, we all believe in something. Whether it is the computer or crapbook pro that we are wasting our time on or in God, we all believe in something. It is for that fact, that idea that one believes, that God exists. My god is the Christian God, but your god may be something else entirely. If you take this idea, you can see where my statements earlier will make sense; simply fill in the blank. But of course then again, will your god be there when you fall to help you back up? If it is something earthly or something that man devised or invented, then the answer is inevitably no. I sorry to tell you that. If you don’t believe me, again that is your choice, then by all means, test it out.
Thank you for reading. Remember to laugh and enjoy the company of others who are truly others worth caring about and remember that you should be someone who is worth caring about as well. Keep it easy and keep it real.
-Robert
Well I haven’t posted anything on here in a long time. I guess my reasoning looking back on it is that I never understood why I had it in the first place. But things are going extremely well. My 5th year in college, studying hardcore, but to be honest, I am loving it. I love the material that I am studying and always have. I am looking at graduate schools and trying to make a decision on if it is for me. Only time will tell.
Up kinda late which is unusual for me. Just sitting here chilling watching some tv. Week has been going great! Doing very well in my classes so far and I am actually enjoying them! Wish I were graduating on time, but I will this December! Kinda felt nostalgic this week. Feel like my old self, living life, enjoying everything that has come my way. Green Bay won the Superbowl, which made me like one of the happiest fans on Earth!! Go Pack Go!! Gotta live life one day at a time and enjoy it!
IHSV
Been hanging with my brothers all week and it has been awesome. Fun times and plenty more to come. IHSV
…if I am worthy of anything. I know I have the right to be happy, that is for sure, but that comes from within mostly. I hear a lot of people say that happiness can’t come from anything but yourself. I agree and disagree at the same time. I totally, 100% agree that happiness can be radiated from within. It has to. But what about that be triggered by an outside interaction? Don’t others make you happy? I think that the possibility is great that they do. Otherwise, why surround yourself with friends and loved ones? It wouldn’t make any sense unless you gained something by that, but that would be a terrible existence. I personally find happiness in both; it’s balancing both that can lead to trouble. I sometimes catch myself relying on the interaction of others too much. This knocks down the amount of happiness I gain from something driven by me. I do, however, believe that in doing this, I have generated some happiness within because I love to make people happy. Just something on my mind.
Words are just words until action reinforces them.
This semester has been awesome! I always love Spring semester for some reason. Classes are going really well and I am really enjoying them. It’s a rough class load, but I somehow find time to be with friends here and there and that is way more than it was last semester. This week is our I-Week for our pledges. I think they are doing well from what I hear, so that’s great. Got a busy weekend ahead, but a great one. Can’t wait!
IHSV
it’s gonna happen.
And no class. Heck yea.
AND IT WAS AWESOME!
Classes start tomorrow and I am super excited to get back into the swing of things. Break has been great, but I am ready for class. Got a big semester ahead of me, but I am going to give it all I have and then some! Success comes with hard work, and I aim to succeed.
What is true freedom? I have asked myself that question for many years and my answer has finally ended up being this: To live without fear. Okay, I am fine with that answer, but what is fear? My favorite synonym for fear is doubt or insecurity. So to live without doubts or insecurities is true freedom. Is that even possible? Logically not it is not, because we are all human and we all have doubts and insecurities. There is no escaping that fact. Then how do we become truly free? I have come to the conclusion that to do this one must believe, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that they have an influence upon their own destiny. That they have a choice. No one else can make this choice. When I look at the world, I don’t see this very often. I see those people who think they live free, but don’t believe that they do. Thinking is different than believing. We have these restraints in life that bog us down, yet we say that we are free to do as we will. Freedom can also be defined, under my definition, as living without consequence. That is a dangerous road, but if we ignore the obvious danger, then we are truly free. Live with no regrets. Sounds nice doesn’t it? Since it is basically unobtainable, let’s call that Heaven on Earth. Does it exist? I don’t know. I am just a 22 year old college student, but you have to wonder sometimes: is true freedom (peace of mind, no doubts, etc…) Heaven? And on the flip side, if we live in constant fear, lack of hope, and completely insecure, is that Hell? It definitely sounds similar to me. Believing in others is hard to do when most of us can’t answer this question. How are we to believe in others if we don’t first believe in ourselves? But if we truly believe in others, what we are, what we have, what we do, etc… then it becomes substantial. I realize this now and understand that in order for something to last and to be good, you have to believe in it beyond a shadow of a doubt. If you can believe in yourself and the fact that you have a choice, then you are truly free.
100 posts on this thing and I still don’t understand why I have it lol.
